DAY 35

So, what's been happening in "the white gallery"?
ahaa...
HOW, WHAT, WHERE, WHEN?
TODAY: HOW to put WHAT WHERE.
organising,
temporarily,
temper,
temperamental.
"the white gallery" is my enclosure, I use it to practise.
today's exercise: learning to follow what I see.
hahaa...

What makes it so difficult to keep things clear and simple?
...

WEEK VII - DAY 34

Happy with HOW I'm doing WHAT!
CLOUDS.

Been FOLLOWING clouds,
HOW to follow clouds?
How to follow myself, using clouds?

DAY 33

Collision,

" violent peace"

and ran with it,

"On top of a cloud"

" Carrying clouds"

" Lustful intent"

hahaha... .

DAY 32

mmm... seem to have crashed!

slowmotion...

still crashing!

DAY 31

Beautiful day 

DAY 30

Confused..., don't seem to know what is what anymore!
WHAT is there? (out here, in there?)
REALITY?         IMAGINATION?

The eye of the beholder! 
And it's not just about beauty,
sense of the beholder, more like.

The core..., centre..., truth..., 
has always been unclear.

"must be somethin' in the air"

DISTANCE required.

The eye of the beholder indeed,
PERCEPTION...
cloudy
clouds
pollution,

WHAT do I see...? WHAT do you see...? WHAT do we see...?

Pulled apart, pushed together,
clear sky's, storms brewing,

OPINIONS
developing, disintegrating,
cloudy clouds.


Today's little exercise: 
differentiating between HOW you see things and HOW you would want to see them.

DESIRE is a strong ignitor, in no time it 'll have you shift into 5th gear, racing through a 10 miles/hour zone! 

WEEK VI - DAY 29

REVISION

DAY 27 & 28

IN-BETWEEN week V and VI

DAY 26

Friday frustration,
dead end,
the stillness of turning points,
relentless,
noise accumulating into defeat...
deflating like a balloon,
it's not a pretty sight...

DESIRE and its many layers... or is it rooms,
a labyrinth.

I want, I want, I want!


TO FOLLOW 

FOLLOW THROUGH, (because of it, or just passing?)
FOLLOW TRUE.
Don't you just love HOW language takes you THERE, WHERE you have permission to choose.*

The clouds don't want me.
I can't keep up.

I can't, I can't, I can't....
ABILITY 

RESISTANCE.
Ability denied,
The computer says NO. hahaha...

* choosing between detour or shortcut,  distraction or focus.

DAY 25

and it went quiet...

DAY 24

In the thick of it.
Midges annoying me, 
the delightful obstructive side of reality, hahaha...

DAY 23

Freedom?
How to make use of a beautiful day?
Knowing HOW, not just in my imagination (thought) 
but in practice (reality)....
difficult...
find myself at a loss here,
self motivation?
Rock bottom.
Hell disguised as Heaven!
I have no idea what to do with it all,
totally lost sight of my where abouts.

WEEK V - DAY 22

Monday morning
and the sun is out!

DAY 20 & 21

IN-BETWEEN week IV and V

stuck in freedom,
not of a material kind,
how can I seduce, deceive myself?

I want to go EVERY way,
known and unknown,
every way, not ALL the way, mind you, hahaha.... maybe way.

I seem to be in a position where I feel forced to choose between restrictions.
A matter of choice of which obstacles to confront.
Quel luxe!

ye ye..... pfff....

Be grateful!
(I AM)

I wanna be inside and outside,
go inward and outward.

what's the difference between environment and situation?

Be happy and sad,
strong and weak,
fast and slow,

Affordable unclarity
when/where you afford yourself to be unclear,
towards others and yourself also.

Trust is a powerful something.

DAY 19

Closing off WEEK IV

at last...
been wanting to work on my cloud techniques since forever it seems...

DAY 18

lalalaa... 
a bit of distraction....

DAY 17

Working with IGNORANCE?
my very own brand...

Going around in circles,
bigger ones, smaller ones.

Looking for doors, just so that they can be ignored.

mmm....
question for today: the difference between ignorance and avoidance?

DAY 16

Differentiation for today:
INTENTION  -  PURPOSE

Intention posing as Direction,
Purpose posing as Contents,

either changing Direction...
or replacing the Contents.

Proportional difference.
For the smaller to fit into the larger, without loss of identities.

 I'm all confused now, hahaha...

"The Music Lovers"

 frustration and helplessness. 

I'll just stare at them for a while....

WEEK IV - DAY 15

TRANSFORMATION ZONE.

Practise, practise, practise...
Start the week with something familiar,
something comfortable,

                                           Sketching in charcoal

DAY 14

Closing off WEEK III.

There's a restlessness,
a sense of "danger", fear?

It springs up from a deep rooted insecurity,
not being able to count on myself,
to disappoint myself.

The demand for a flawless dependency,
on myself, or on others,
constantly on the lookout for proof, that really I cannot, depend on anyone, not even myself.

TRUST,
that's where the work starts!

Hahaha....

DAY 13

Agreement rules out acceptance.
Sharpening of contradictions.

In-Between looks after itself,
you can safely lose yourself there.

DAY 12

The simplest exercises are the most difficult ones.
Hence, a preference for complicated ones.

DAY 11

Permission to settle into the chaos of not knowing.
A welcome opportunity for practising.
Practising what?

Steering attention away from seeking comfort in settling in
Settling in does not equal Staying
Settling in = relaxed awareness = Acceptance
Acceptance does not equal Agreement
Settling in does not equal Comfort
Settling in = PRESENCE

Presence is enjoyable, it moves.

Exploration and Experimentation = Play

Playing with Speed and Direction.

Enjoyment = Satisfaction
Satisfaction does not equal Comfort
Comfort = Support

Seeking comfort in settling in or receiving it?

DAY 10

Keep things simple.
Easy is difficult enough.

WEEK III - DAY 9

Confusion hits me,

it doesn't hurt, but it's not exactly fun either.

Don't try to explain or even understand the situation.

It's kind of exciting to be on loose ground, to not know.

A brush with innocence.

Questions of the day: 

To experience  innocence, is that DISCOVERY?

Our desire to know, to understand..., what is it that we expect from KNOWLEDGE anyway?