ORDER & CHaoS

Another small painting from the "Fragile Breakable" series. 

"Plotting Moon" 

A vulnerable figure rolled up into full moon shape, revealing a face-like image, scratching its chin.
1st in an edition of 6 (each of them executed slightly different)

Can be kept in its homemade recycled cardboard box, or lifted out and hung as it comes from the wee nail provided, or alternatively you could have it framed.
10-10cm, oil on canvas

£ 49.00

If you wish to purchase this wee gem, please get in touch by an email on naessensvera@hotmail.com or  leave a message.

UK postage is included.
For international postage, please enquire. 

Cycle of Life

A set of 2 small paintings, boldly depicting the dualism of existence.

"Piekeboo, moonlightdelivery" & "Deathmask"
From the "Fragile Breakable" series in the "ORDER & CHaos" range

They can be kept in their homemade recycled cardboard box, or lifted out and hung as they come or you can have them framed.
2 x 10-10cm, oil on canvas

£ 120.00

If you wish to purchase this set, please email me on naessensvera@hotmail.com 

UK postage is included.
For international postage, please enquire.

DAY 71

Final day was yesterday,
no fuss,
just let it happen.

This morning?
mmm...

HEAVY rather than HEADY

opening up resolves closure?

nothing to close off, 
just passing through having a look,
not sticking around getting bogged down,

taking leave.

making distance,
stretching the connection.

hahaha...

 

DAY 70

So... closing the project...

Pressure is building up.

I haven't given much thought on HOW, it seems, not planned it.

Attention has been with following the fluid contents of my intention.
The presence of INTENTION, without knowing its direction, without direction full stop... hahaha.
Not planning HOW,
letting HOW show itself.
Steering without steering.
hahaha.... pressure building up!
(15 October)

Sunday morning, Final day...

DAY 69

I want, I want, I want... (day 26)
seems to have transferred in
I do, I do, I do.... hahaha

DAY 68

VOLLEDIG. 
COMPLETE.
Empty or full .... BOTH.
Muddled and clear.
      
      CONFUSED?

      Hahaha...

      IN BETWEEN

The 13 week experience,
it is what it is,
was what it was,
will be what it is made to be.

Let the experience go,
do something with the "leftovers",
the notes, the scribbles,

going back to take forward,
take some distance, (een aanloop, a run-up)


....

to be continued, 
sooner... later..., both.

WEEK XIII - DAY 67

On the 1st day of this final week,
shutting it down,
closing off, 
letting go,
very autumn like, mmm...

clouds and trees,

DAY 64

A 13 week long experience, rather than experiment.
A heady start again this morning, towards the end of week 12,
somewhere in between closing and opening I suppose.

Not a cloud in sight...
Following Tree's is sooooo different.

Before 

After

DAY 63

Boxes, boxes, boxes,
they take care of their contents,

there's a load on the way, hahaha,
can't wait. 

WEEK XII - DAY 61

A lead taking me...
around the corner...

hadn't been expecting these HEADY releases last week,
and they seem to be flowing over into this week as well.
I' m helpless in the moment, 
helpless in my ability to decant them.
Lacking jugs, 
the confrontation with REALITY, mind altering.
I suppose I'm following this project in its wind down,
experiencing a boost of energy...
a rather exhausting boost of energy...
hahaha...

DAY 58

Recognition,

time to slow down,
unplanned,
unforced,
just following a lead.

DAY 57

Practising clouds in the studio.

So, week XI into the project, 2 more weeks to go after this one,

mmm...

Separating Imagination from Reality,

experiencing the connection between them,

the confusion.

Following and steering, hahaha.. sounds all so serious, I'll have a wee dance now!

DAY 56

Feeding off exhaustion.

DAY 55

Satisfaction is often confused for happiness.
Searching gives me satisfaction, even if the results don't,
and it's in this satisfaction that I often find the happiness I confuse it with, hahaha... just one these days I'm afraid!

WEEK XI - DAY 54

CONFUSION

DAYS 52 & 53

Choice and Decision.
Bare Intention.
Differentiation between what was and what will be.
Present Expansion.
Process Connection.
Integration.
Direction.

DAY 50

Competition is a branch developing to uproot the tree.
But that's for another project,
in the moment it's still CLOUDS I'm hanging from.

DIFFERENTIATION TREE'S

DAY 49

 A bit of distraction.

 

Clouds from the porch last night.

DAY 48

Unity,
Mixed confusion,
REALITY / IMAGINATION,
Intention,
Separation, Division,
Recognition.

WHAT do you see?
HOW, WHERE, WHEN?

WEEK X - DAY 47

     

Friday morning chaos            Saturday morning order

     

Sunday display                     Today in the gallery

DAY 46

A fine day for it,

WEEK IX - DAY 43

Following Clouds, 

direction and speed.

DAY 42

And so we close of WEEK VIII.

DAY 41

Intensify! Hahaha...
yeh right
wrong!

3 x 10-10cm

DAY 40

Which half? To join the Whole,
the Black Hole! Hahaha....

Serious, playful intention is seeking 
to turn itself around.
Playful, serious intention!

mirror, mirror...

DAY 39

1,2,3

4,5,6.

WEEK VIII - DAY 38

Trallalie, all is well she... thinks
                                    imagines.

DAY 37

Came across the following: "pure knowledge" ( The end of science - John Horgan p. 251)
What is that: pure knowledge?
Knowledge with staying power? Longer staying power?

What if knowledge is fluid and flows like air?

Anyway, that's WEEK VII gone.

DAY 36

Heavy clouds today,
suspended in midair.

                             "Airlifted"

Life, is it about accepting yourself,

             about following others,

             about learning to judge and justify...

for the sole purpose of learning HOW not to judge and justify yourself,

so that you become able to follow yourself on the way out,

knowing HOW to truly make the best of your way through, 

Life?

DAY 35

So, what's been happening in "the white gallery"?
ahaa...
HOW, WHAT, WHERE, WHEN?
TODAY: HOW to put WHAT WHERE.
organising,
temporarily,
temper,
temperamental.
"the white gallery" is my enclosure, I use it to practise.
today's exercise: learning to follow what I see.
hahaa...

What makes it so difficult to keep things clear and simple?
...

WEEK VII - DAY 34

Happy with HOW I'm doing WHAT!
CLOUDS.

Been FOLLOWING clouds,
HOW to follow clouds?
How to follow myself, using clouds?

DAY 33

Collision,

" violent peace"

and ran with it,

"On top of a cloud"

" Carrying clouds"

" Lustful intent"

hahaha... .

DAY 32

mmm... seem to have crashed!

slowmotion...

still crashing!

DAY 31

Beautiful day 

DAY 30

Confused..., don't seem to know what is what anymore!
WHAT is there? (out here, in there?)
REALITY?         IMAGINATION?

The eye of the beholder! 
And it's not just about beauty,
sense of the beholder, more like.

The core..., centre..., truth..., 
has always been unclear.

"must be somethin' in the air"

DISTANCE required.

The eye of the beholder indeed,
PERCEPTION...
cloudy
clouds
pollution,

WHAT do I see...? WHAT do you see...? WHAT do we see...?

Pulled apart, pushed together,
clear sky's, storms brewing,

OPINIONS
developing, disintegrating,
cloudy clouds.


Today's little exercise: 
differentiating between HOW you see things and HOW you would want to see them.

DESIRE is a strong ignitor, in no time it 'll have you shift into 5th gear, racing through a 10 miles/hour zone! 

WEEK VI - DAY 29

REVISION

DAY 27 & 28

IN-BETWEEN week V and VI

DAY 26

Friday frustration,
dead end,
the stillness of turning points,
relentless,
noise accumulating into defeat...
deflating like a balloon,
it's not a pretty sight...

DESIRE and its many layers... or is it rooms,
a labyrinth.

I want, I want, I want!


TO FOLLOW 

FOLLOW THROUGH, (because of it, or just passing?)
FOLLOW TRUE.
Don't you just love HOW language takes you THERE, WHERE you have permission to choose.*

The clouds don't want me.
I can't keep up.

I can't, I can't, I can't....
ABILITY 

RESISTANCE.
Ability denied,
The computer says NO. hahaha...

* choosing between detour or shortcut,  distraction or focus.

DAY 25

and it went quiet...

DAY 24

In the thick of it.
Midges annoying me, 
the delightful obstructive side of reality, hahaha...

DAY 23

Freedom?
How to make use of a beautiful day?
Knowing HOW, not just in my imagination (thought) 
but in practice (reality)....
difficult...
find myself at a loss here,
self motivation?
Rock bottom.
Hell disguised as Heaven!
I have no idea what to do with it all,
totally lost sight of my where abouts.

WEEK V - DAY 22

Monday morning
and the sun is out!

DAY 20 & 21

IN-BETWEEN week IV and V

stuck in freedom,
not of a material kind,
how can I seduce, deceive myself?

I want to go EVERY way,
known and unknown,
every way, not ALL the way, mind you, hahaha.... maybe way.

I seem to be in a position where I feel forced to choose between restrictions.
A matter of choice of which obstacles to confront.
Quel luxe!

ye ye..... pfff....

Be grateful!
(I AM)

I wanna be inside and outside,
go inward and outward.

what's the difference between environment and situation?

Be happy and sad,
strong and weak,
fast and slow,

Affordable unclarity
when/where you afford yourself to be unclear,
towards others and yourself also.

Trust is a powerful something.

DAY 19

Closing off WEEK IV

at last...
been wanting to work on my cloud techniques since forever it seems...

DAY 18

lalalaa... 
a bit of distraction....

DAY 17

Working with IGNORANCE?
my very own brand...

Going around in circles,
bigger ones, smaller ones.

Looking for doors, just so that they can be ignored.

mmm....
question for today: the difference between ignorance and avoidance?

DAY 16

Differentiation for today:
INTENTION  -  PURPOSE

Intention posing as Direction,
Purpose posing as Contents,

either changing Direction...
or replacing the Contents.

Proportional difference.
For the smaller to fit into the larger, without loss of identities.

 I'm all confused now, hahaha...

"The Music Lovers"

 frustration and helplessness. 

I'll just stare at them for a while....

WEEK IV - DAY 15

TRANSFORMATION ZONE.

Practise, practise, practise...
Start the week with something familiar,
something comfortable,

                                           Sketching in charcoal

DAY 14

Closing off WEEK III.

There's a restlessness,
a sense of "danger", fear?

It springs up from a deep rooted insecurity,
not being able to count on myself,
to disappoint myself.

The demand for a flawless dependency,
on myself, or on others,
constantly on the lookout for proof, that really I cannot, depend on anyone, not even myself.

TRUST,
that's where the work starts!

Hahaha....

DAY 13

Agreement rules out acceptance.
Sharpening of contradictions.

In-Between looks after itself,
you can safely lose yourself there.

DAY 12

The simplest exercises are the most difficult ones.
Hence, a preference for complicated ones.

DAY 11

Permission to settle into the chaos of not knowing.
A welcome opportunity for practising.
Practising what?

Steering attention away from seeking comfort in settling in
Settling in does not equal Staying
Settling in = relaxed awareness = Acceptance
Acceptance does not equal Agreement
Settling in does not equal Comfort
Settling in = PRESENCE

Presence is enjoyable, it moves.

Exploration and Experimentation = Play

Playing with Speed and Direction.

Enjoyment = Satisfaction
Satisfaction does not equal Comfort
Comfort = Support

Seeking comfort in settling in or receiving it?

DAY 10

Keep things simple.
Easy is difficult enough.

WEEK III - DAY 9

Confusion hits me,

it doesn't hurt, but it's not exactly fun either.

Don't try to explain or even understand the situation.

It's kind of exciting to be on loose ground, to not know.

A brush with innocence.

Questions of the day: 

To experience  innocence, is that DISCOVERY?

Our desire to know, to understand..., what is it that we expect from KNOWLEDGE anyway?

DAY 8

" inhale - exhale "

Do we allow examples and projections to shape our deepest desires?

Are we in danger of being hijacked or imprisoned by them?